Hello! Welcome to the beginning of my blogging adventures! I am new to this as well as EVERYTHING that I have been up to over the past few months. So far a lot of it has been a ton of trial, error, and lots of prayers! I want you to know why I am doing this and what brought me to this point.
First of all, there is NO turning back from here! What I started; I will finish! And I started this so there would be a finish line to get too! Growing up I was always pretty small. I think the biggest size I got into was 7's before I had kiddos. And then after I got pregnant I put on a TON of weight. My heaviest weight was 224 and I was used to being 130 or below. Not only did I gain a TON of weight, but I got the stretch marks and acne right along with it! This was extremely hard for me to deal with and at times it still is. The acne has cleared up but there is scars, and the scars will never go away. So, all of this took me into a place of pure unhappiness and I did nothing to try to change it but EAT EAT & EAT! I am a major emotional eater. If one thing is effecting me I will eat sweets, I will not be focused, and I will go back for more and more and more. It is almost like a distraction from feeling fear or better yet; self sabotage! The funny thing is, every time I am done with stuffing my face with all the stuff I know is not right for me, I am only left to feel worse. I am left now with not only the issues and pain that I am dealing with emotionally, but now they are intensified from my actions of pure negligence to my body. Then I feel failure and defeat! Wow, was all that really worth it? NO!
According to an article in WebMD; when you're happy, your food of choice could be steak or pizza, when you're sad it could be ice cream or cookies, and when you're bored it could be potato chips. Food does more than fill our stomachs -- it also satisfies feelings, and when you quench those feelings with comfort food when your stomach isn't growling, that's emotional eating. This is one thing that I had to defeat and I still have to work at really hard to not let it sink me back in!
What I eventually started to do (I thought was the right step) was to go see a doctor. The doctors started me on medication like Cymbalta and then Zoloft. I was taking anxiety medication like Clonazepan (Klonopin) trying to get my life back. ALL I wanted was to feel right when I went to the store or anywhere for that matter. I HATED to leave my house. And family functions was like nightmares! All I wanted to do was crawl in a hole and hide. I hated my clothes and buying clothes only resorted to anxiety attacks. So, instead all my money for my clothes went to the kids and I continued to wear the t-shirts, sweat pants, and flip flops. Trying to dress up was only a battle, a cry, and most the time ended up with the result of not going. The person that I was on the inside was really effecting the person that I was on the outside. I had little friendships, and the friends that I did talk to, I did not talk to often. What did I have to offer? I was so depressed and untrusting in everyone and I did NOT want anyone to know how bad I was really feeling. The one person that did know everything was not there for me like I needed and that only made it worse. This medication became nothing but a cycle of even more chaos. Now, I was tired ALL the time and the eating was not stopping by no means! After months of battling with the pills I had enough. I went to the doctor and told him this is not working for me. We talked about the effects of exercising and I knew it right there. He prescribed another medication but I never got it filled. I knew what I had to do and if I did not do it, I was going to be in a world that I did not like nor did I want to be a part of.
So, back in February I was talking to my best friend Shannon Hoffman Nelson (Independent Beachbody Coach) about what I was going through. She already knew, but also knew that I was not going to listen until I was ready. We have been best friends for almost 5 years. Way before any of this beachbody stuff began and the one thing I loved about her was that she was very active into fitness when we met. She was a huge inspiration and motivated me like no one ever has. Not only did she stay my friend, she helped me and encouraged me to get up, get started on what I knew I had to do, and she did NOT let me make any excuses! She was very forward and upfront with me. She had that tone that was a little harsh but it was pure reality. There was NO more playing around for me. I either listen and do what she says to do or I suffer in my own world of hurt. And I could not afford to go to some personal trainer or a gym and I did not want to either. This is MY LIFE we are dealing with and at that time it was VERY PERSONAL. I trusted her and that is when she told me about Shakeology and Teambeachbody. I thought she was crazy. How in the heck am I going to afford this. I told her I could not afford it. I had no job, my husband was laid off, we were hurting BAD. We could barely pay our bills. I mean we were on food stamps and on occasion had to get additional help for food (food boxes). We had to go to churches for help with our electricity and had to make arrangements for rent. It was not a position that I wanted to stay in. After being told that I could stay home with the kids the next thing I know I am out job hunting with NO work clothes. I went to the Salvation Army for a voucher to get something that FIT so that I would look nice for a interview. And trying to find something was yet again another nightmare. Nothing fit, nothing looked right, I was miserable. But, I did it anyway, and I found a job that I thought would work out for the time being. I did not have to dress fancy and had a couple pairs of pants that kind of fit! They were snug! I wore them anyway and fought for that paycheck. Here is the sacrifice that I made: with my first paycheck I signed up to be a teambeachbody coach. I payed the 39.95 so that I could get the Shakeology with my next paycheck at a discounted price. And that is what I did! The next paycheck (which should of went to bills) went to ordering my Shakeology. I had to. It was either I take a chance and do what I have seen work for my best friend in ways that were absolutely amazing or I continue to suffer and live this life that I was so unhappy with. I was done suffering and ready for a change. I AM GOING TO BEAT THIS!
Now, I am in my 3rd month of drinking Shakeology and doing P90X. And so far I have lost 30 pounds! 30 pounds in 3 months of drinking shakeology, working out, counting calories, and changing my habits! I also added whey protein in my diet to help my muscles to recover faster! AND NOW...............I am wearing tank tops, cute shorts, cute jeans, tops, heals! And I am FEELING FANTASTIC! If I would not of made a way for my health to be a priority then I would not be here SHARING ALL of this with you. I am not even worried or embarrassed. All I want now is to help others in the way that Shannon helped me. I want to share my story with you and I want you to know that there is a way to make things work. I did a lot of praying and made a ton of wishes along the way but let me tell you I am still here, I feel amazing, I am seeing some CRAZY results, and I am still going at it. I am still a work in progress and I WILL NOT GIVE UP this fight for a wholesome, healthy, and joyful life for my kids and I. I am going to tell you this; if you think that your going to lose that weight or change the way you feel by sitting there and taking NO action. I am sorry to be the barrier of bad news but it is NOT going to happen. Bottom line is that there is people that DO CARE and that WANT for you to SUCCEED! I LOVE THIS! : )
I am closing this blog with this: DON'T SETTLE FOR LESS THAN YOU DESERVE AND PLEASE DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. There are people that care and they are here to see, help, and make sure that you succeed! BUT, YOU have to be ready!!! : ) Feel free to message me anytime if you want to!! : )
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